I finally found our MCA for a little tribute band i like to call the Beastie Broads. so i had "Ch Check it Out" in my head all night. i hate waking up in the middle of the night and i'm in the middle of a song just playing away in my head. I think it's part of my OCD thing. i dunno, maybe others are like that too.
03/11/08 - i'd like to say that i MISS our defunct tribute band, even if we never played out. it was fun getting together, drinking and pretending to be girlie adrock. haha.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The ex
I dream of Robert Hutton at least once a month. He was my first REAL boyfriend. I dated him at church and the boy was gorgeous. i was really surprised i could get a guy like that, little did i know he had a REAL girlfriend of his own at school. thus begins the story of my dating life.
I dream that i'm with Jayna Byrd at her house (which looks like my grandmother's trailer). We're tying to get her dogs to be friends with my cats. it's not working. something strange happens and my cats start multiplying. i know how to fix the problem, but i have to gather up all the little vyvyans, ricks, sassies and hatties and put them together before i can do this little magic trick thing to make them all one again. i finally do it, keep them locked in one room away from the dogs, and Jayna and i go looking for some fun.
We decide it would be fun to look up Robert Hutton and see what he's been up to for the last... umm, 15 years. how Jayna knows him is beyond me, but it was TOTALLY her idea. We cruise his old neighborhood and luckily we find him very easy... he's still living with his parents. i get up the nerve to walk up and say hi to him in his front yard and he doesn't recognize me (which happens in every dream about him). I notice how good looking he still is, but he def looks a bit old in the eyes. we have a conversation about what we've been up to and jayna takes off to check on the animals.
Robert and i go into his house and it looks the same. i see his sister and we chat for a bit. Rob goes on and on about himself and i get bored after awhile and want to leave. He keeps trying to hit on me, but i know better. i tell him i have an awesome husband and matt's cuter than he ever was.
awake.
this dream (besides the weirdness of jayna being there and the whole cat multiplying thing) seems to make perfect sense to me... i found true happiness after years of being with the wrong men. i shouldn't look to other men to fulfill something i already have. :)
Lets see what Sandra A Thompson has to say:
cat(s)- Instinctual energy that's been tamed and is relatively close to consciousness; feminine power/energy; the feminine archetype; female genitals. (nice! this makes PERFECT sense to me on so many levels)
dog(s) - loyalty/fidelity, especially to your own values/intentions; therefore, your ability to go forward in the world with a strong internal base. (matt!)
magic - Having magical powers represents the capacity to get what you want, to make your dreams come true. it may represent your own special, unique abilities; a reaction to feelings of powerlessness in waking life; a need for control...over the elements, your inner nature.
I dream that i'm with Jayna Byrd at her house (which looks like my grandmother's trailer). We're tying to get her dogs to be friends with my cats. it's not working. something strange happens and my cats start multiplying. i know how to fix the problem, but i have to gather up all the little vyvyans, ricks, sassies and hatties and put them together before i can do this little magic trick thing to make them all one again. i finally do it, keep them locked in one room away from the dogs, and Jayna and i go looking for some fun.
We decide it would be fun to look up Robert Hutton and see what he's been up to for the last... umm, 15 years. how Jayna knows him is beyond me, but it was TOTALLY her idea. We cruise his old neighborhood and luckily we find him very easy... he's still living with his parents. i get up the nerve to walk up and say hi to him in his front yard and he doesn't recognize me (which happens in every dream about him). I notice how good looking he still is, but he def looks a bit old in the eyes. we have a conversation about what we've been up to and jayna takes off to check on the animals.
Robert and i go into his house and it looks the same. i see his sister and we chat for a bit. Rob goes on and on about himself and i get bored after awhile and want to leave. He keeps trying to hit on me, but i know better. i tell him i have an awesome husband and matt's cuter than he ever was.
awake.
this dream (besides the weirdness of jayna being there and the whole cat multiplying thing) seems to make perfect sense to me... i found true happiness after years of being with the wrong men. i shouldn't look to other men to fulfill something i already have. :)
Lets see what Sandra A Thompson has to say:cat(s)- Instinctual energy that's been tamed and is relatively close to consciousness; feminine power/energy; the feminine archetype; female genitals. (nice! this makes PERFECT sense to me on so many levels)
dog(s) - loyalty/fidelity, especially to your own values/intentions; therefore, your ability to go forward in the world with a strong internal base. (matt!)
magic - Having magical powers represents the capacity to get what you want, to make your dreams come true. it may represent your own special, unique abilities; a reaction to feelings of powerlessness in waking life; a need for control...over the elements, your inner nature.
Cloud Nine : A Dreamer's Dictionary
I thought i'd bring my dream dictionary to work since i'll be blogging here most of the time. not that i believe it at all. every dream dictionary is completely different, but i thought it'd be fun to "analyze" my dreams according to the book.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Evil Amusement Park
This is pretty close to the colors it looks like in the dream and even the angle in which i'm "zip lining" over it. But it's much less realistic.
Now That I Think About It...
a lot of stuff that usually happens in both those dreams (Evil Hospital / Evil Amusement Park) were completely cut out. and as i was typing that last blog, it was very hard for me to separate the things that usually happen in those dreams from the actual dream i had last night. so strange.
The Hospital is Too Big for Me to Escape!
Now that i'm typing out that title, i seem to recall that i do have this dream often, in different variations. the one i had last night is actually two dreams i have that formed into one. it starts out with a day of fun with an unidentifiable friend. she is very familiar to me but i can't place her. we are at a VERY familiar amusement park. it is one i dream of often that starts out fun and ends up evil. while we are having fun and trying to catch the rides before they close (which is always the case in this dream), my friend gets a call that a loved one has been in an accident.
Cut to the evil hospital (which is the other dream). We are trying to find where her relative is and we are sent through a maze of hallways until we arrive at a pool. we have to get into bathing suits to see her relative (WTF? did her relative turn into an octopus ore something). as we're standing in line waiting to see them, i realize that i left my dog, Darcie, in the car since we had first arrived at the amusement park and i started to worry about her. i decided to cut loose from my unidentifiable friend and go get Darcie and give her some water. As i am leaving my friend begs me to stay and cries uncontrollably, but i MUST get to Darcie. that is when i realize the whole dream was trying to prevent me from getting to my dog. I try to leave the hospital, but as the dream always goes, i am lost behind door after door... hallway after hallway. after panic attacks and freak outs, i finally find myself outside only to be facing the evil amusement park.
it looks different now. it's dark. it's glowing these purple, green and blue colors as if it's under black light. it looks like a painting from the distance. I can see all the rides and by then i realize that i'm in the same dream that i've had many times. I know what to do to get past the evil rides and get out of that park. i MUST water and walk Darcie. i almost float past the rides as if i'm on a zip line and i get to the entrance/exit. it's then that the trouble starts. it's very strange to explain. these things... they pop up in lots of my dreams. they're eyes. then they're eyes and a nose. but not just one... thousands. and they make a noise... kinda like when mario smushes a turtle. actually. come to think of it, these things look very nintendo like. they are growing on the sidewalk and they're trying to grow on me. it's almost like when tar bubbles up... they are just bubbling up out of the sidewalk and forming. the faster i walk the faster the eyes multiply and then start growing noses. then faces and so on... they are assembling an army to keep me from Darcie. I try to fight them but they're too fast. i am being drowned in them and suddenly i KNOW what they are. i realize they are the things that terrorize me in my sleep and i burst through them and exit the evil amusement park.
it's then that i wake up and see my darling Darcie sleeping. as i take in the dream i realize i wasn't "completing the steps" to save Darcie, but i was doing them to actually wake up. dreams like that scare me. What if one day i can't complete the steps and i can't wake up?
What Sandra A. Thompson says:
Amusement Park : An Amusement park, if dark, quiet and empty, it may be time to open yourself to more fun and adventure. see carnival. (but what if it's quiet, dark, emty, and EVIL?)
Carnival : It may symbolize the need for fun; the chance to compete or show prowess; the opportunity to view freaks or distorted aspects of yourself at the sideshow. It can symbolize surges of energy/excitement; the "ups and downs" of life; frivolity; letting down inhibitions; or the goddess Car, patroness of carnivals. (carnival sounds a lot like ROLLER DERBY to me)
Hospital: Anxieties about your health; an existing medical situation; an upcoming medical experience; and ailing friend or family member (jill?). Occurrences in the hospital may reflect your feelings about past/present medical care. if there's no medical condition in your waking life, they may refer to your own inner ability to take care of yourself physically/emotionally. the book goes on....
Cut to the evil hospital (which is the other dream). We are trying to find where her relative is and we are sent through a maze of hallways until we arrive at a pool. we have to get into bathing suits to see her relative (WTF? did her relative turn into an octopus ore something). as we're standing in line waiting to see them, i realize that i left my dog, Darcie, in the car since we had first arrived at the amusement park and i started to worry about her. i decided to cut loose from my unidentifiable friend and go get Darcie and give her some water. As i am leaving my friend begs me to stay and cries uncontrollably, but i MUST get to Darcie. that is when i realize the whole dream was trying to prevent me from getting to my dog. I try to leave the hospital, but as the dream always goes, i am lost behind door after door... hallway after hallway. after panic attacks and freak outs, i finally find myself outside only to be facing the evil amusement park.
it looks different now. it's dark. it's glowing these purple, green and blue colors as if it's under black light. it looks like a painting from the distance. I can see all the rides and by then i realize that i'm in the same dream that i've had many times. I know what to do to get past the evil rides and get out of that park. i MUST water and walk Darcie. i almost float past the rides as if i'm on a zip line and i get to the entrance/exit. it's then that the trouble starts. it's very strange to explain. these things... they pop up in lots of my dreams. they're eyes. then they're eyes and a nose. but not just one... thousands. and they make a noise... kinda like when mario smushes a turtle. actually. come to think of it, these things look very nintendo like. they are growing on the sidewalk and they're trying to grow on me. it's almost like when tar bubbles up... they are just bubbling up out of the sidewalk and forming. the faster i walk the faster the eyes multiply and then start growing noses. then faces and so on... they are assembling an army to keep me from Darcie. I try to fight them but they're too fast. i am being drowned in them and suddenly i KNOW what they are. i realize they are the things that terrorize me in my sleep and i burst through them and exit the evil amusement park.
it's then that i wake up and see my darling Darcie sleeping. as i take in the dream i realize i wasn't "completing the steps" to save Darcie, but i was doing them to actually wake up. dreams like that scare me. What if one day i can't complete the steps and i can't wake up?
What Sandra A. Thompson says:Amusement Park : An Amusement park, if dark, quiet and empty, it may be time to open yourself to more fun and adventure. see carnival. (but what if it's quiet, dark, emty, and EVIL?)
Carnival : It may symbolize the need for fun; the chance to compete or show prowess; the opportunity to view freaks or distorted aspects of yourself at the sideshow. It can symbolize surges of energy/excitement; the "ups and downs" of life; frivolity; letting down inhibitions; or the goddess Car, patroness of carnivals. (carnival sounds a lot like ROLLER DERBY to me)
Hospital: Anxieties about your health; an existing medical situation; an upcoming medical experience; and ailing friend or family member (jill?). Occurrences in the hospital may reflect your feelings about past/present medical care. if there's no medical condition in your waking life, they may refer to your own inner ability to take care of yourself physically/emotionally. the book goes on....
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